The Other I

March 22, 2013

The you that is me

Filed under: Growing Old,Just Stuff — theotheri @ 9:06 pm
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I just want to clarify that my post yesterday, “Sermon to myself” really was meant to be a sermon to myself, and not to the reader.  It was a soliloquy about what makes me happy, energized, feeling as if I am living my life as it was given to me to be lived.

I’m someone who simply loves to work.  The last day I left the university, I sat in my car and sobbed.  I loved the challenge of the students, I loved the self-discipline and continued critical thinking that being a university professor called for.  I didn’t see retirement as a holiday but rather as a chance to learn different things, to face new tasks.  I’ve written two books since retiring, learned how to build walls, tile around pools, grow lemon trees, fix electrical appliances, and appreciate just how profoundly different cultures really are.

So my sermon to myself was very personal – it was not advice to other retirees.  It was merely a reminder to myself that in truth I can’t sit still and be happy.  In part, that’s a limitation.  It makes me very goal-oriented but not so good at letting go and simply appreciating the glory of the moment.

I thrive best with a schedule.  Not a schedule with rigid inflexibility, not a schedule which does not take into account the changing needs of age in myself or my husband and friends.  But I don’t do well with days filled with complete spontaneity, asking myself every quarter of an hour or so “what shall I do next?”

It’s the way I am.  But certainly not the way everybody should be.  Thank goodness they aren’t.   They’d drive me crazy.

 

 

 

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  1. I’m with you, though. I feel if you have a plan and a structure, you can always deviate from it and you can always return to it – you are never stuck for what to do, really. And, like it or not – things have to be done and they all take time. No matter what stage of life we are at – time is short. Best get on stacking tasks into time-slots and making the most of it.
    Or maybe that’s just me.

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    Comment by sanstorm — March 23, 2013 @ 10:29 am | Reply

    • As I see it, it *is* just you – or just me. That’s what’s glorious – we are each unique, our best is not the same as everybody else’s best. Finding what works for me and living it and being glad that there are other people who fill in the gaps I don’t fill isn’t a compromise. I find it amazing that I’m still learning to appreciate this — none of us are complete unto ourselves. Which means we can each just do our best and find joy in whatever gifts that are uniquely ours.

      Okay, I’ll stop. I’m beginning to feel like a bad poem. But I know you know what I mean.

      On Sat, Mar 23, 2013 at 10:29 AM, The Other I

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      Comment by Terry Sissons — March 23, 2013 @ 12:05 pm | Reply


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